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  • Mood: Worried
  • Listening to: Honeybee
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Anime
  • Playing: Trumpet
  • Eating: away at my thoughts
  • Drinking: Water
I just need to get a grip on myself. 

I'm posting here mainly because most of my irl friends never check dA anymore. It's more like a vent journal for myself.

I keep on gaining confidence in one aspect of myself and losing it in another aspect. It's frustrating. I don't even know what i mean, exactly. I mean, I do, but, augh. 

I don't really want to talk about it to anyone. Well, to a few people, but I already have a feeling I know what they'll say. And they're right, I just. It sucks feeling so apprehensive and worried over stuff that's all in my head. 

It's just a bunch of insecurities and thoughts and things that have been eating away at me and I just can never find the right opportunity to talk about it. I just don't want to worry anyone else, or annoy anyone else, exasperate anyone else. Because it's always the same stuff. But bottling stuff up isn't good. and I have people who say it's okay to tell them things whenever but I just want to get my own grip on myself and I can't.

It's not easy talking to people about the stuff that really bugs me. I always talk about stuff that bugs me but there are a few things I still always keep to myself, and haven't shared, and...

I really don't know. I'm just overthinking too much, way too much.

I also feel very desensitized lately. That's also part of the problem. I don't feel like me as much as I want to. 

I also feel like the only way I can express myself lately is through music. Or the only way I can feel like me when I'm not around friends is with music. Otherwise I feel very off.

Also, I didn't talk about camp here, so I'll at least share a little bit of the experience that was my second year of Leadership Camp. Despite what I'm feeling right now, I feel a little strength when I think about camp. It's my 4th family. I have regular family, my friend family, my band family, and my camp family. 
  • Mood: Worried
  • Listening to: Honeybee
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Anime
  • Playing: Trumpet
  • Eating: away at my thoughts
  • Drinking: Water
I just need to get a grip on myself. 

I'm posting here mainly because most of my irl friends never check dA anymore. It's more like a vent journal for myself.

I keep on gaining confidence in one aspect of myself and losing it in another aspect. It's frustrating. I don't even know what i mean, exactly. I mean, I do, but, augh. 

I don't really want to talk about it to anyone. Well, to a few people, but I already have a feeling I know what they'll say. And they're right, I just. It sucks feeling so apprehensive and worried over stuff that's all in my head. 

It's just a bunch of insecurities and thoughts and things that have been eating away at me and I just can never find the right opportunity to talk about it. I just don't want to worry anyone else, or annoy anyone else, exasperate anyone else. Because it's always the same stuff. But bottling stuff up isn't good. and I have people who say it's okay to tell them things whenever but I just want to get my own grip on myself and I can't.

It's not easy talking to people about the stuff that really bugs me. I always talk about stuff that bugs me but there are a few things I still always keep to myself, and haven't shared, and...

I really don't know. I'm just overthinking too much, way too much.

I also feel very desensitized lately. That's also part of the problem. I don't feel like me as much as I want to. 

I also feel like the only way I can express myself lately is through music. Or the only way I can feel like me when I'm not around friends is with music. Otherwise I feel very off.

Also, I didn't talk about camp here, so I'll at least share a little bit of the experience that was my second year of Leadership Camp. Despite what I'm feeling right now, I feel a little strength when I think about camp. It's my 4th family. I have regular family, my friend family, my band family, and my camp family. 

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PikachuGirl11
Nat, just call me that
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
PikachuGirl11 is a silly name, but I don't think I can change it.

-insert procrastination-

Geese are still birds of evil(still true) and elevators are freaking creepy okay (still scary).

I'm always hyper, yet I am consistently lazy. (Not quite as hyper anymore. I've mellowed out somewhat, I think. I hope.)

Okay, my favourite books are fantasy based and I love mysteries too. Romance...depends. (It really does depend. Is it good romance? Then yes.)

With shows I like Doctor Who, Psych, will be getting into Supernatural soon, and Sherlock Holmes. And then there's anime, so much anime... (Still mainly anime. I never did get into Supernatural. I like The Office though)

I aspire to be a professional musician, I play the trumpet, piano, and I have yet to learn the violin.
(I STILL DON'T KNOW THE VIOLIN. But as a Music Education major I'll have to learn it and several other instruments hella)
(I didn't realize being a music major meant auditions at the time, ahahaha.)

Marching band is amazing and jazz band is love. (still true)
1. Jazz
2. Classical
3. Techno
4. Good music

I paint a decent amount, and I draw occasionally. I like acrylics, but I love oil paints.

I'm Indian, and I was born and raised in America. The only language I know is English, unless you want to count Spanish 3 as me knowing a little bit of Spanish.

Current Residence: House
Print preference: Not my printer because it was really stupid this week.
Favourite genre of music: Let's Jazz it up
Favourite photographer: scarlettfeever and shatteredawe, this won't change.
Favourite style of art: Some cartoony realism anime-ish stuff.
Operating System: Mac Snow Leopard, hasn't changed.
MP3 player of choice: Ipod touch
Shell of choice: Shuckle.
Wallpaper of choice: Roses.
Skin of choice: Green.
Favourite cartoon character: I don't know.
Personal Quote: "My idiocy shines through in times like these. Like a shining lightbulb; of light."
"What"

The ( ) is me currently vs. the stuff I wrote/edited like a year or two ago.
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:iconjetshay:
Jetshay Featured By Owner May 1, 2013   Digital Artist
i came here to say happy birthday and omg
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PikachuGirl11 Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww thank you!! I'm sorry i'm replying so late things have been crazy. Finals and AP testing and a jazz trip and school ends after tomorrow and then summer vacation wooo!
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Jetshay Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2012   Digital Artist
HAPPY early BIRTHDAYYYYY
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PikachuGirl11 Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Ahhhh how sweet of you, thank you!! Oh man 16, legally allowed to drive. After I get my permit, after the tests, after lessons.....
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RockyQuintez Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2012
oh my god
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PikachuGirl11 Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
What
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RockyQuintez Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2012
i
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PikachuGirl11 Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You i what
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RockyQuintez Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2012
oh my fucking god
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PikachuGirl11 Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
CAN YOU PLEASE TELL ME WHAT
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