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Stuff from years ago, perhaps I should upload some new stuff if my scanner works/ I get a camera that's not photobooth on my mac.


I take a long time to fav things. And then I forget to comment. hjghfd



  • Mood: Worried
  • Listening to: Honeybee
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Anime
  • Playing: Trumpet
  • Eating: away at my thoughts
  • Drinking: Water
I just need to get a grip on myself. 

I'm posting here mainly because most of my irl friends never check dA anymore. It's more like a vent journal for myself.

I keep on gaining confidence in one aspect of myself and losing it in another aspect. It's frustrating. I don't even know what i mean, exactly. I mean, I do, but, augh. 

I don't really want to talk about it to anyone. Well, to a few people, but I already have a feeling I know what they'll say. And they're right, I just. It sucks feeling so apprehensive and worried over stuff that's all in my head. 

It's just a bunch of insecurities and thoughts and things that have been eating away at me and I just can never find the right opportunity to talk about it. I just don't want to worry anyone else, or annoy anyone else, exasperate anyone else. Because it's always the same stuff. But bottling stuff up isn't good. and I have people who say it's okay to tell them things whenever but I just want to get my own grip on myself and I can't.

It's not easy talking to people about the stuff that really bugs me. I always talk about stuff that bugs me but there are a few things I still always keep to myself, and haven't shared, and...

I really don't know. I'm just overthinking too much, way too much.

I also feel very desensitized lately. That's also part of the problem. I don't feel like me as much as I want to. 

I also feel like the only way I can express myself lately is through music. Or the only way I can feel like me when I'm not around friends is with music. Otherwise I feel very off.

Also, I didn't talk about camp here, so I'll at least share a little bit of the experience that was my second year of Leadership Camp. Despite what I'm feeling right now, I feel a little strength when I think about camp. It's my 4th family. I have regular family, my friend family, my band family, and my camp family. 


Nat, just call me that
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
PikachuGirl11 is a silly name, but I don't think I can change it.

-insert procrastination-

Geese are still birds of evil(still true) and elevators are freaking creepy okay (still scary).

I'm always hyper, yet I am consistently lazy. (Not quite as hyper anymore. I've mellowed out somewhat, I think. I hope.)

Okay, my favourite books are fantasy based and I love mysteries too. Romance...depends. (It really does depend. Is it good romance? Then yes.)

With shows I like Doctor Who, Psych, will be getting into Supernatural soon, and Sherlock Holmes. And then there's anime, so much anime... (Still mainly anime. I never did get into Supernatural. I like The Office though)

I aspire to be a professional musician, I play the trumpet, piano, and I have yet to learn the violin.
(I STILL DON'T KNOW THE VIOLIN. But as a Music Education major I'll have to learn it and several other instruments hella)
(I didn't realize being a music major meant auditions at the time, ahahaha.)

Marching band is amazing and jazz band is love. (still true)
1. Jazz
2. Classical
3. Techno
4. Good music

I paint a decent amount, and I draw occasionally. I like acrylics, but I love oil paints.

I'm Indian, and I was born and raised in America. The only language I know is English, unless you want to count Spanish 3 as me knowing a little bit of Spanish.

Current Residence: House
Print preference: Not my printer because it was really stupid this week.
Favourite genre of music: Let's Jazz it up
Favourite photographer: scarlettfeever and shatteredawe, this won't change.
Favourite style of art: Some cartoony realism anime-ish stuff.
Operating System: Mac Snow Leopard, hasn't changed.
MP3 player of choice: Ipod touch
Shell of choice: Shuckle.
Wallpaper of choice: Roses.
Skin of choice: Green.
Favourite cartoon character: I don't know.
Personal Quote: "My idiocy shines through in times like these. Like a shining lightbulb; of light."

The ( ) is me currently vs. the stuff I wrote/edited like a year or two ago.

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Jetshay Featured By Owner May 1, 2013   Digital Artist
i came here to say happy birthday and omg
PikachuGirl11 Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww thank you!! I'm sorry i'm replying so late things have been crazy. Finals and AP testing and a jazz trip and school ends after tomorrow and then summer vacation wooo!
Jetshay Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2012   Digital Artist
PikachuGirl11 Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Ahhhh how sweet of you, thank you!! Oh man 16, legally allowed to drive. After I get my permit, after the tests, after lessons.....
RockyQuintez Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2012
oh my god
PikachuGirl11 Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
RockyQuintez Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2012
PikachuGirl11 Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You i what
RockyQuintez Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2012
oh my fucking god
PikachuGirl11 Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
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